Sometimes I feel just like a gerbil running around and around on this wheel. My treasure lies before me but no matter how fast I run – I’m can never reach it. He’s always one step ahead, I can’t catch up.
I remember the day we met – I’ve been searching for him everywhere, I’ve been waiting for him – he was nothing like I imagined but half of what I hoped for. He shows an insensitive and uncaring face but deep down inside his heart I can see the most caring person in the world. He’s always there to listen and is very quiet but I know that he’s always trying to tell me something. When awkward moments come between us he always knows the perfect joke to say and gets me talking again. His hair is just the perfect shade of black; his face is pale for an Asian. His eyes are round and are have a beautiful creamy chocolate color to them, yet they show his innocent heart. He didn’t have many friends, just a few in a distant land. I wondered why no one ever wanted to talk to him but then again he had just moved here, so I hung around him more. I found out that the more I hung around him the more I tried looking for him everywhere I turned. I’ve never thought about a guy so much before, I’ve never couldn’t stop thinking about a guy… until I met him.
I remember the time I took him to his first amusement park. He didn’t like roller coasters and neither do I. So we rode the carousel around and around until I almost fell of my jumping plastic horse and he almost did too. I can still see our silly smiles shining with happiness in front of a flying background. I can still see the sweat on our foreheads from laughing so hard at nothing in particular. My heart still remembers the pangs of sadness when he told me that he wanted to take a break and go to the bathroom. I remember my heart aching as I watched him walked off the carousel and told me to wait for him. I remember those long lonely minutes where my loud heartbeat replaced our laughing. But he came back – sweating more than before. I can still feel the smile of relief on my face when he came back. He held out a purple box with laced edges in front of my eyes and opened it to reveal…
A glistening necklace with a star charm.
I couldn’t take my eyes off the necklace. I can still feel him lean closer to me like he always does. He whispered in my ear,
“Thanks for lighting up my darkness, my super star.”